Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Quickie Mikey Update 9/21/10

His leg is broken.  He has a "minimal fracture" that is causing discomfort, so the orthopedic surgeon put a cast on.  He will have it three weeks.  The week after that, he gets his helmet off!  Our visit with the geneticist isn't until next week; I was confused.  I have no idea how I could have gotten my dozens of appointments mixed up...

Friday, September 10, 2010

SCL Week 1 Day 4

I've noticed a couple of important patterns.  First, my self esteem has dropped every day at 11am and 9pm.  Could that be due to something in my routine, or is it physiological?  Second, my self esteem is based greatly on Ellie's attitude.  I seem to blame myself entirely for her crankiness.  Sure, sometimes I screw up the routine or don't give her enough attention, but sometimes she's just cranky!  I need to a) make sure I'm doing my best and b) learn to let it go, even when I haven't done my best.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Days 3, 4, 5 & 6

FAIL.

I am a master of deception...of myself.

I convinced myself, after spotting 19 Kids and Counting in the list of recorded programs, that I'm actually uplifted after watching this show, so I should allow myself to watch this one show each week.  Then I set the recording for Joyce Meyer using the same excuse.

I'd been really good about turning off the television when Mike wasn't watching and not turning it on at all when Ellie's up.  Then I watched the show.  As expected, that opened the floodgates.  I started watching Pride and Prejudice for just a few minutes while Mike's doing yard work or while I'm pumping.  Then I started leaving the television on when Mike left the room.  Then I started turning it on during Ellie's nap.  Then I let Ellie watch Cars over the weekend.  Then I argued with Ellie that she'd watched her show; now it was my turn.

Then I was embarrassed to write this update.